God I hate Mondays

Let's see the day started off with me going to bed early which is around 3-4am and had a cry before I went to sleep. This is super rare for me as don't usually feel that sad at all.
For some unknown reason I was on a real low, had lots of nostalgic moments and was thinking of my dad. This came from dreams I had the day before Dad when he was ill. Thought I would've had nice ones instead no they were about how he was, how he snapped things i'd thought i'd forgotten as try not to remember that stuff as it's upsetting. And now because of it i'm stuck with a look of him in my head I can't shift and it horrible. Somethings I guess you never forget yet usually can remember him healthy and well. Sure I do occassionally remember how he was when he was ill. But this memory is one of the last 2-3 of him I have and I hate it. It's making me sad to point all I want to do is cry.. I've been fine for the past 8 years and now, why now it's hitting me again old memories I guess I usually can shift the mood pretty quick and forget about it. But not today!

Following that I went into town to sign on on the way home I got on a bus and got off at the wrong place god knows where I was I headed for the pub and phoned for a taxi, i was frozen couldnt feel anything face, hands and feet. By time I got to a road near wher eI live i got out of taxi and walked rest of way to try and shift my mood and to think. What a bad idea that was. I guess i'm in one of those moods I just want to go to bed and sleep and be alone sounds awful i'm trying to be chirpy just really difficult. Even randy knows somethings not right with me im usually blustery bouncy cheerful chipper lou.

Oh wells maybe it be better tomorrow...

throw me a frigging bone here

What a day....

My family pushing my patience levals to the max and i'm running out of patience for their attitude and meddling dipshit ideas. It was an ongoing battle to control my temper I know it was close to exploding today. They thought they had the right to take away the power point to my pc, without consulting or speaking to me first about any thoughts they had. My mom let my brother make that decision and just let him do it. What the fuck does he know he's just a kid who thinks he rules the roost. He gets away with murder and mom just gives him free reign to do whatever he wants, yet me blah I can't even speak my own damn mind or plan something without her sticking her fucking oar in. Don't they get it the more they try control me the more likely I am to turn away and leave home. I'm 24 years old not a kid.. I never caused mom trouble, never did crazy stuff like my brothers, yet if do one or two things like spend time on pc or plan a trip it's oh do this do that. Yet she let my brothers do everything they ever wanted. Hellooo talk about being a damn hypocryte in every which way. ~oh I treat you kids all the same~ BULLSHIT one rule for jay and gee, totally different set for me. It's like she thinks i'm the one who's gone off the rails like i'm the one who needs rules I DON'T DO STUPID SHIT. I've always been well behaved sure i've had moments where i've argued but that nothing. I'm not the one who breaks the damn law every day without regard of the consequences.

i'm stop there

Thats all folks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well it's 3 days after moving

I feel like i've gone ten rounds with a boxer I ache in places I never knew I could ache. Talk about increasing your fitness levals without the need for gym memebership. Chuckles, I spent the night talking to Randy wohoo, Dorethy, Ron and Lisa. Had a right hoot (by the way YAWNING) is bad grrr spent at least 40 odd minutes yawning to that word. I did it again as I typed it. Oh how i'd love to erase that word from the dictionary. It's like a curse if I read it off I go.

Everythings pretty quiet here, moved a few boxes but I ache a tad too much to do anything.
My dogs love it here i'm settled as is Mom and Jay. It's just so peaceful, no traffic, no noise it's weird.
We have even started talking about what we're going to do to the garden and the House. I'm probably just going to paint my room the same colour it is as its tiny and being cream it'l make it look big. Mom and jay plan to do their room, I suggested a Coffee/mocha colour for the lounge with a darker colour for one wall to bring out the size of the wall and accentuate the fireplace.

Hopefully this means no more moving, Yay.

That''s all folks!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well it's a New Year and time for a new start

LOL I Decided since it's 2008 and my old blog would not work properly to start a new blog.

Lets see it's March Yay this years gone by so fast hehehe. Hopefully it will get better..
What's happened I just moved this weekend, got a great New guy called Randy who makes me super happy (Love you Honey). I'm not going to dwell on what happened in the past it was a lesson learned and I moved on and changed again. I'm happy now and that's all that matters.

What else Mom and John broke up but got back together again urgh would love to shoot his butt I truly dislike the man for the chit he put mom through. Gee and Torie lord knows I never speak to them they just dun give a flying fuck I guess.
Jay and Loz still going strong even if they do argue a fair bit.

I guess i'll add more later tonight wanted to just set this up and get it going.

That's all folks!!!!!!